Tuesday, August 31, 2010

What is real?

After a wonderful little Monday night with wonderful friends, I thought of this...




he Skin Horse had lived longer in the nursery than any of the others. He was so old that his brown coat was bald in patches and showed the seams underneath, and most of the hairs in his tail had been pulled out to string bead necklaces. He was wise, for he had seen a long succession of mechanical toys arrive to boast and swagger, and by-and-by break their mainsprings and pass away, and he knew that they were only toys, and would never turn into anything else. For nursery magic is very strange and wonderful, and only those playthings that are old and wise and experienced like the Skin Horse understand all about it. 

"What is REAL?" asked the Rabbit one day, when they were lying side by side near the nursery fender, before Nana came to tidy the room. "Does it mean having things that buzz inside you and a stick-out handle?"

"Real isn't how you are made," said the Skin Horse. "It's a thing that happens to you. When a child loves you for a long, long time, not just to play with, but REALLY loves you, then you become Real."

"Does it hurt?" asked the Rabbit.

"Sometimes," said the Skin Horse, for he was always truthful. "When you are Real you don't mind being hurt."

"Does it happen all at once, like being wound up," he asked, "or bit by bit?"

"It doesn't happen all at once," said the Skin Horse. "You become. It takes a long time. That's why it doesn't happen often to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept. Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. But these things don't matter at all, because once you are Real you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand."

"I suppose you are real?" said the Rabbit. And then he wished he had not said it, for he thought the Skin Horse might be sensitive. 

But the Skin Horse only smiled.

Cute.

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Under the bridge.

Today after church, I joined a few of the other LDPs (college staff members) of Athens Church to deliver extra food and water from the services today to the homeless that live under the bridge.

I'm speechless.

Literally, as I was driving to deliver food, I was thinking about how my car, who I lovingly refer to as "Betsy," is showing her age by sucking up fuel like it's her job.  (AKA my gas mileage is... not so hot.)

I wasn't thinking that as I left the bridge.

Since this is one of our first times delivering food, we merely stopped by, dropped the food off at the table, and handed everyone water bottles.  We introduced ourselves and asked their names as well, shaking their hands as they eyed the food we brought in Dunkin' Donuts bags.  It's quite the set up they have down there.  They've set up cots, tables with all sorts of food, and hung blankets all around.  One of them proudly showed us his collection of sports jerseys.

Even though the encounter lasted no more than five minutes, it was one of those things that just made me stop.  My head stopped spinning with all of the things I had to do.  I stopped thinking about all of my "problems." I instead became thankful that I have felt burdened by decisions about my post-college life.  Because I have a post-college life.  I had a college life. I have options. I live in abundance.

Walking up the path to our cars, we passed two women and a man headed down to the bridge.  The two women stopped to talk to me and another girl, while the man spoke with the guys that had come.  About two minutes into the conversation, of the women asks to pull one of us aside so she can talk to us.  Admittedly, I was fairly wary of her.  I had no idea what she was going to ask me or how I should respond.  I'm almost ashamed of that.  But, I stepped aside with her and asked her what was going on. She told me that the girl with them, who referred to herself as "Sweet Pea," had arrive from Atlanta two days ago.  She was sixteen.

Neither the other woman nor the man who accompanied them knew her story.  They didn't know whether she was a runaway.  Not knowing what to tell them, we advised the two to talk to the police or someone at a homeless shelter or the food kitchen.  Oddly, a police car drove by a few minutes later and stopped, offerring to talk to the three.

We took this as our cue to leave.

And we did. We left. And returned to our daily lives.  I'm answering emails for work, sitting under my fan, in my air conditioned house, about to start studying for the LSAT.

I'm blessed.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Good Quotes


“Listen to the MUSTN’TS, child,   
Listen to the DONT’S     
Listen to the SHOULDN’TS    
The IMPOSSIBLES, the WON’TS           
Listen to the NEVER HAVES       
Then listen close to me—             
Anything can happen child,        
ANYTHING can be.”
-Shell Silverstein

“stop talking yourself out of the life you want most.”

Things I'm loving today: My bed & afternoon catnaps.  We had a blassst last night, but 9:30am came way too early this morning, so I spent my 1 hour lunch break in my bed.  In my wonderful, all-to-myself, queen bed with three inch mattress pad, seven pillows, pink sheets, and poofy comforter.  Um, hello heaven.

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Things I'm loving right now...

1. Zac Brown Band, "Free"



2. This:


3. This quote: Where ever you are, be all there.

4. The fact that I can wear JEANS to work today instead of business casual! YESSSS!*

5. The fact that my hours are going back to (sort of) normal-people working time.*

*Unfortunately, 4 & 5 are the result of something VERY sad... the end of Institute! Eek! I can't believe it's over!

Speaking of things being over, so is my break! Back to work... :)